tell me, would you kill to save a life?

lauren michelle ♥

Uhh…. Hi tumblr.
It’s been a while.

There’s so many things I’ve wanted to write but now I’m here I don’t know what to say….
I work full time in a bank now.
I’m still with Jamie.
Uh. Hey. Hiya.
This is on my BB so, is there any way I can access my ask box?

grow up, little girl.

thanks for the sympathy messages after i nearly died, followers. thanks a bunch.

/sarcasm.

and i just keep crying because i cannot believe that we are still alive.

hey, remember that time when i crashed my car into the back of a lorry because the brakes locked up and i should be dead, but for some crazy fucking reason i’m still alive.. and my legs arent even broken. 

and the paramedic said he had no idea how we were alive.

he said he should be cutting us out of the car. 

but we’re alive and we WALKED out of the car.

okay, i was in hospital all day friday because they think ive got some weird internal injuries, but still. i’m alive. we shouldnt be alive. 

and because it was “unfinished business” we went to Leeds Festival on Saturday. the day after it all happened. we stayed at the back and didn’t go into the crowd, but we still did it. despite the agony we were in. 

i cannot fucking believe all of this has happened.

and i’m heartbroken over my car - she died to save us. that sounds ridiculous but it’s true. if it wasn’t for that car, we’d be dead. and even the head doctor person in the hospital said that, and said that’s the exact reason she drives a saab too. 

i just  keep thinking of what could of happened - what SHOULD have happened -and i’m so so thankful.

and i now know that its not my time to die. i’m supposed to be alive. i know i am.  

i love Jessicka.

she’s always got time to tweet me and DM me. 

love love love that woman, can’t wait to meet her in October!